So I'm a little bored at work right now and it's 4:42...which basically means it should have been 5:00 42 minutes ago because everyone gets ready to leave then anyways. I got back from Utah on Tuesday at 2:30 in the morning after delayed plane, after delayed plane. It really got annoying and I was trying to avoid long layovers the whole time, but I guess it wasn't meant to be.
I'm just sitting here thinking about my future and what it holds. Right now me and Gio are 22 weeks (5 1/2 months) pregnant with a GIRL. And I say WE because Gio feels pregnant probably just as much as I do...which is mostly my fault. We live in Gio's parent's "Guest House," which honestly I am grateful for because it has helped us out alot especially in our situation. But you know...sometimes you just wish you could jump ahead 10 years...have all your kids out of heaven, live in a nice home, drive nice cars, have money, have a daily routine, and some constant friends. I look at my sisters and brother and their families and wish I was that far along...you know...living the life...family vacations, activity days with the cousins, runs/walks with your baby, stroller and a friend, having someone call you for lunch...ect. But I have heard over and over that "these will be the happiest times of our marriage." Which I actually believe to be true....when you are that far ahead in life you probably can look back and say that even if it wasn't true. One thing is for certain though, I bet you learn the most.
So here we are in Florida...I live here with my family Gio. I don't know alot of people and after 5 1/2 months of living here (coincidence that I am that many months pregnant? I think not) I'm still trying to get used to it. I know I like the weather, living by a lake, the beach, DISNEY!! But It's hard leaving home...I know I still call Utah home, but I call Gio home too...not necessarily Florida yet cause it's new but we'll see some day. I didn't really have a culture shock or anything when I moved here because I usually adjust well to new environments. However, what I haven't adjusted too well to is being alone. I'm not really "alone" but you get what I mean. I can't call up an old friend to get together, I can't go home to a house full of people I know well, or even visit a house full of people I know well. This might sound a little negative, but it shouldn't. It should just sound like a person who is in the mist of a change and trying to deal with it...
Well this seems to be a little long-winded and unorganized but oh well. It is now 5:00 and it's time to go get ready for my Young Women's lesson. Yes, that is another thing I am trying to get used to....teaching young women's (I think I just got my medallion.)
Alright, I will talk again later...take this with a grain of salt.
3 comments:
I feel your pain sista! We also wish we were in Utah. Its hard to beat that place and family; however, I love being here in Indiana. Stick in there! It's hard to believe, but you will look back and love the first few years in Florida. Keep in mind - up till this point your family has been right on most things:) Trust me - you have it good and I know you know that. You live in a great home with family near, you do drive nice cars, you happen to have a pool and it just so happens there is a lake with a boat just beyond the pool - but above that you have a great husband and you'll soon have a little girl. YOU'VE GOT THE LIFE! and the only thing that really matters in Gio and that little girl. I would be 3rd in line then Lui.
Love you sis! JD
Jess, I remember those lonely days in Minnesota when John and I were first married. I remember being pregnant, not knowing anyone and working a bank that no one came into. (We called it the moffia bank). I missed home but I think I was so sick I wasn't able to think about it too much, plus I know I could suffer through it for four months. Although my situation wasn't long term then, my situation is NOW and I miss home all the time. But I know that this is where we are supposed to be and we are growing together stronger as a family because of it. I don't have great words of wisdom other than you will be a mother before you know it. I know it's tough but the cheesy "enjoy each stage of your life now" saying is so true. I know it feels like it is going to take forever until the baby comes and she starts talking and interacting but believe me, it comes sooner than you think. Every time I feel overwhelmed being a mother I remember my mom saying "enjoy it now, it will be over before you know it and you will be wishing you were back in that same moment." Hailey has seriously grown up in the blink of an eye!!! How about we switch places for a day? For now read an entire book in a day, go to three movies in a row and take long bath for me.
Jess,
I miss having you here too. But I can say I know you are in good hands. Living in this modern world does make it so much easier to travel and see each other via web cam etc. I can't help but think about those young girls who married and left their country and family back in the 1800's to go to america. The only contact they had with their family were letters. Today we have so many ways to feel and stay close. I was talking to Melanie on the web cam and enlarged her picture. It was as if she was in my room. I have to say it is a little exciting to think I can visit my kids away from home. Jessica you are doing great I am amazed at how well you have adjusted even though you miss Utah. You have a great husband, and family there and I am grateful for them. put some new pictures in of your life there and the family
Take care
Love YA MOM
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